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Hummingbird ornament in garden

New is the hummingbird sun-catcher, hanging from the tree.

New is the hummingbird feeder, dangling near by.

New is this scene, just for a year, in a house in Santa Barbara,

where all the nature is new to my eyes.

Hummingbird feeder

Time in this house, with my three children, is ample,

Sometimes it feels a prison, I can’t get them out,

other times it feels a welcome hide-away,

with enough distractions to keep me from venturing out.

Bird in the garden

My days are quantified with small achievements;

children fed and hydrated, stories read,

music played, a dance and a song –

A painting, a drawing, a swim in the pool,

dishes are clean, clothes all washed and beds made.

Water fountain in the garden

If I think any further, have a place to be at a set time,

it all feels too much. Anxious tears spring in my eyes.

Phone calls go unanswered, responded with a text or an e-mail.

Shopping is left to do on-line, or by my husband on the way home from work.

Bird in the garden

I just have enough in me, each day, to focus on the little things.

For now, that is all I have and that is enough.

So the new hummingbird feeder in the garden draws my focus –

It’s significance is magnified by my simple days.

Hummingbird in the garden

The sight of a bird, at the feeder or on a plant nearby,

flitting in the sunshine, with one purpose on its mind,

is my symbol of being in the moment, right now.

If I have to think past the moment, to the future, or question the past,

those tears spring again, and I feel down in my heart.

Hummingbird in the garden

So now, in this New Year, I shall focus on what is now.

Right here, every day, new in the moment.

It is enough, for now.

Hummingbird

© Sarah Lee, January 2014

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2 comments

  1. Oh honey, it still sounds like you are really struggling. I truly hope you feel better soon. On a side note, I’ve been trying to capture our hummingbirds for the past two and a half years and never managed it, well done on your beautiful photos

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